Monday, January 10

Well, I only made it 9 days. I didn't take a picture for Monday. I left for work before the sun came up. I think that should be a rule or something, that if the sun isn't starting the new day, either should we. I was at work for 12 hours and if I could take pictures of how cute this one little kid was, I would have. Every single time I walked into the room, he would smile and laugh so adorably. This little 14 month old, with no words, got me through the day. His parents, were equally as pleasant, with just as many smiles and almost as many "thank you's" as the little guy's laughs.
I know we aren't supposed to do things just to get thanked, but how incredibly refreshing is it when you hear those two little words. Holding a door for someone, or letting them in front of you while your driving, a thank you is always so appreciated. When I let someone out in front of me and I don't see a little "thank you" wave coming from their front seat, automatically a sarcastic "you're welcome" slips out of my mouth. Grr. I hate when I have this realization- That I have such an easy time being helpful and nice when someone appreciates it. Their appreciation seems to validate what I am doing... which, in reality is never why I should be doing anything! Jesus is so sneaky. He uses little things like this to get me back on my knees. I do things, watched or unnoticed, because He calls me to do allllll things well. He tells me to love...love... love..... theres never too much... theres never a time when my love should run out. Not for Chad, not for my family, not for the person who doesn't say thank you...not for myself. When I feel my love for people trickling out like a broken faucet, its time for some serious intervention. I need time with Jesus. In worship. In his WORD. and last night, after I got home and had dinner, (cooked by my fabulous husband) i laid on the couch with worship playing. When my heart is full, or trickling, worship always increases my passion, my desire, my love.... Its one place where you can offer nothing, and leave with everything. As this one phrase played, it breathed life and love back in... "your love never fails. it never gives up. it never runs out on me, on and on and on it goes, it overwhelms and satisfies my soul."... it still makes me want to worship. everything i have to offer, everything i lack, when met with his love, is enough. He has equipped me with everything I need to carry out what He has asked me to do. Love and never stop loving.