Today my brain felt like it was going to explode. Migraines are so evil. Waking up to a man who will do anything and everything to take away the pain, is more than relieving. It's almost seven at night, and I haven't even left the house, or my couch for that matter. When you're so used to being busy and running around it makes days like these leave a guilty taste in your mouth. Granted, I've been more than lazy today, so maybe a little guilt is allowed to slip in...  i don't know when i was told or even who taught me that being busy means you are productive. It couldn't be more untrue, because today, I did nothing, but my mind got so much rest and my heart got restored. What feeds your heart. Stay fixated on that, its the healthiest way to stay strong....

a few moments of the past 30 days

 

 this is my favorite when people wear full on trash bag suits to lose weight. get it mr.

 

when your mail is filled with bills and pointless magazines and those crazy chinese food flyers that appear week after week, its so much fun to get a card, especially this card, from one of the best women i know..Kathi.. you're the best. 

last minute night out.... with really yummy drinks. much advised.

chad has been following this story a ton, and i thought it was ironic that this article talked about living life to the fullest, since that is his life message....worthy of a text picture.

 dinner on a friday night at Valentino's with my love.

 thank goodness you are on the way home from work.... leaves me no excuse. this day i saw a woman in a full leotard suit. skin tight. i mean, really skin tight. she happened to be standing directly underneath the sign that reads, NO JUDGEMENT ZONE. she picked the most perfect place to stand. 

 

see through bathroom doors at paradigm. the glass gets all foggy when you lock the door. one little click can save you much embarrassment. take note.

ooooh. happy birthday to me =) chad is really good at gifts....helllllo anthropolgie.

dinner at Water Works on boat house row. So gorgeous... make sure you ask for a window seat, otherwise its really overpriced for not being able to see boat house row at all...

 Salsa Dancing? Yes Please.

 Jewelry Party to help support Emery Lin coming home. So much fun!

one of angie's amazing blogs about Emery before she knew it was Emery. Melting.

   

 seriously.

 valentine's dinner. made by chad. dressed up in suit. rose pedals and wine and SHOES for my gift. he knows me well.

so much fun to come home to.

 chai with anna and lyndsy at mugshots. 

 

complimentary drink with all services. false. did not get one. most expensive nail salon ever. true. i highly recommend it. false again. 

 It is always interesting visiting Gammy through the changing holidays. Everyone has a little holiday decoration on their door with their own "flare" if you will. Chad and I were laughing so hard at this one though... this one is hassle free, with every holiday included.

Emma's Baby Shower!! I got so distracted though that this is the ONLY picture I took.

charlie. oh how cute is he? I wanted to take him home. sure i couldn't breath... but come on, look at his little eyes.

Leaving for work before Chad means that I get to surprise him with little notes. I love this.

Chad leaving while I am still in bed means waking up to this. I love this too =)

March 3, 2011

If you do something for 30 days straight, it is supposed to become a habit. I have now proved this theory to be false. I realized today that I haven't written in a while... In the busyness it gets swept to the side. The thing that remains constant is my desire to do it. For some reason though, my desire doesn't burn deep enough to sacrifice something else. Regardless of what is happening around me, my mind never stops spinning with thoughts and ideas and dreams. I dream about writing, about letting my heart out on paper, about speaking to people, mostly women,  about the way God transformed by life, the way he rescued me. The way he broke my fear-filled nature and built strength back into me by placing people around me to stretch my tent pegs. He never shows you your faults, or your failures, without offering a solution, a different way.... I look around and I see people, in similar places to where I was... and I feel like if they just knew a little bit of what I have seen...maybe it would change their thoughts, and in turn, their lives. I dream about work....about what my days would look like if I saw Jesus enter in the hospital... If he touched my patients... If he healed them. What would it look like to pray for people and see them be transformed right before your eyes. I believe it is going to happen. I believe that. Even when i dont see it yet. even when i pray and pray and pray and dont see it yet. I'm not giving up on it. Im not giving up on seeing jesus get what he paid for.